Back Home Once Again

I recently turned 29. I felt it was a very significant birthday for me in that I feel I've grown. Well, not just in years but spiritually and in what I understand my purpose is as a mother and a wife, a daughter and a sister.
I've returned to Saint John, but I am not alone. I have brought with me my faithful and devoted husband and two amazing girls. Jason is in his new job as a skilled parks worker for the city of Saint John's leisure services. He is enjoying it and I believe will go far with it. Ada and Mia are loving the city and the closeness of friends and family. Although we have left behind some amazing people that we love, we have also begun to renew some of the relationships that were once at a distance.
So here we are and hopefully for a while.

ada: mommy, I don't want to leave this world.
mommy: you mean in Truro?
ada: yes.

I know the move was a bit of a change, but our children are young and adapt well. They find the good in life and go with it. As long as they have love and care they do just fine.

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Sentimental, I know, but I find it hard to wash the windows and mirrors where little hands have left their mark. On the mirror of Ada's dresser is a little hand print that I've left there since she was less than a year. Can't wash that!! And last night I noticed how dirty our front window is, but quickly realized it was from all the little hands that supported little girls trying to look out at the Grampy they love and the Papa they love. Probably should wash that...and will eventually. But if my windows are a little smudged with finger prints it's out of love and it brings a warm reminder of my love for my little girls.

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I recently found the Nie Nie Dialogues which if you don't know is the blog of the woman in the new "Mormon Messages" video "My New Life". She and her husband were in a plane crash and she was burned severely. I have found her perspective and experiences, the way she copes and sometimes finds it hard to, a very refreshing and motivating example and have drawn from her strength. And even before her accident she kept her blog and reading it has helped me and have enjoyed reading about who she is, how much she adores her husband, her children.

Another resource I have drawn from is a book my parents gave me for mother's day called Contentment: Inspirational Insights for LDS mothers. This too has given my view of motherhood a fresh perspective I continue to work away at studying the scriptures and making them my priority. They are the ultimate guide for whatever you need. I know that's true.